You see I get attracted/lured to one or more things as my dream or aim with
each passing day. I still consider myself to be much stable than many confused
brains I have seen around me and I also consider myself to be in a much better
position than those who are just earning their monthly salary and don’t
consider that some extra efforts can change their life drastically. I am
at least a person who has dreams and aims for himself in his life. (My good
friend whom I always send the write up before posting on my blog gave his honest
comments over here : don’t compare my life with others, you never know who
feels happy in which state). But I am
believer of a quote from great Dr. A.P.J Abdul Kalam : “Dream, Dream Dream,
Dreams transform into thoughts and thoughts result in action.”
But currently I am
doing nothing great in my job, it may be very good for my parents, my relatives
and also for some of my non-earning friends but when I see the herd of
engineers passing every year and joining IT and doing the same stuff, it comes
to my mind where do I stand differently from them. I know what I am doing, if a
class 12th student is trained for few months in that technology
he/she can also do that and may be at a lesser salary than what I am earning. I
was a good student in school may be not the best but I was good because I was
not just good in numbers but I was always active in current affairs, taking
responsibilities of events in school,
good speaker, humorous, my friends liked me and I was always in the
bracket of decision makers and planner. Teachers also liked me not just for
numbers but for my activeness in class and other things also but still I was
not the best and intermediate school days dream of getting into prestigious
engineering institutes of my country remained unfulfilled. Also at that time engineering was the only
field that I knew which attracted me, I never wanted to be a doctor as I didn’t
had the love or passion for the profession. My father is a Bank officer but
that profession again never attracted me. The only profession which somewhat
attracted me was becoming an Architect and as I grew up and came to know what
actually engineering is and also the boom I saw IT engineering is having
finally gave me my that time dream “to become an engineer” but I failed to
enter engineering college of my dream.
Still I did engineering
from a private engineering and slowly living with the hostellers I
forgot the dream of getting into IITs. Students in hostellers used to say how
come you didn’t make into IITs or NITs , you seem to be good in studies and
intelligent as I used to help them in engineering subjects they didn’t understand. Again teachers in
class started liking and believing in me that I am a good brain but I didn’t
perform well every time. Sometimes I did but mostly I didn’t and slowly over
the years I converted into a just another engineering student with no dreams
other than getting a good job after college.
But the dreamer in me woke up in final year of engineering when
I wanted to generate electricity from daily articles we see(moving bus, fans,
coolers etc.) and I started working on it. I gave lot of my time in it, studied
learnt discussed with everyone. My friends joked, made fun and sometimes
discussed properly but my college lacked the environment of experiments and
research(if I would have been in IIT or NIT, I may had done something
there..may be). Then came the campus placements time and our college called
some aptitude preparation teams and in that also I fared very well and the
notion of me getting a job was unanimous among everyone. I even cleared Army and
Airforce papers and went for SSB also but I got rejected in Conference round,
may be because I was not having Armed officer dream in me whereas those who got
selected had. Back in college companies came and went but I didn’t got
selected. My both roommates got job but I didn’t and I started searching of
other options as by the end of engineering , I was converted into just another private
college engineer who was concerned only about passing exams and at the end of
college getting a job. So question of trying for masters in engineering was out
of the context. I started trying for job interviews and finally took admission
to a short term specialisation course to get job after that.
I came to Pune with still the same smart intelligent mind
who was already converted into another common engineer ,no skills and no exact
dream which I want to accomplish. For me the important aim at that time was
getting a job and start earning. This condition was also created because of the
family background I had come from, I am not millionaire’s son who doesn’t have
to care about money . It was important for me to start earning and I didn’t had
much time. I gave my complete time to my studies and after completion of course
I got good job in Pune only. That was quite a satisfactory thing for me because
now I don’t have to bother my parents for my expenses and even I could take
care of them from my salary. But as time went past and stability came into my
life the bug of accomplishing dreams (which were not just one or two) started
biting me.
My father used to tell me how share market makes people earn
millions and billions and how big economies and businesses are. Computers
in my life told me how big Bill Gates and Steve jobs are.
As I grew up other things also started luring me, I sing
bollywood songs with keen interest and on my friends demand used to sing in
college and outside and many have said that I have a good voice which makes me
think quite a few time to give a singing competition audition and become a
singer.
I used to conduct seminars and presentations in college and
office and everybody said and says that my way of presentation and explaining
things is nice which makes me dream of becoming TV anchor or something related
to it like do an MBA and be a part of some big company’s executive members.
Apart from this, desires like having a toned 6 pack abs
body, travelling the world, having big houses, cars etc got associated with dreams. One of my good school
friend always used to say “Necessity is the mother of invention” whenever we
used to discuss about some idea and many a times I had discussed with him and
later on with my other friends about ideas that come to my mind. He and later my other friends used to praise
my idea and we started researching on it that we should make/develop something
on it but we never did, because someone had already done that and enjoying
royalties or we were so slow in execution that some big company came into
market with that idea before we even started.
Then came the concept of seed funding, venture capitalist,
apps, utility apps, service based apps all kinds of apps in the mobile market
and every tom dick and harry started making simple simple apps on some or the
other idea and made huge amount of money.
(Tinder, Foodpanda, Bla Bla car, Ola, abc, xyz etc etc) where everything
was to provide user a platform for booking
food, taxi, order groceries, do recharges and many other things. When
only a few of my friends used to discuss about ideas, now every friend started
discussing about it. The concept of getting investment in anyway from any app
based on any idea that is not present in market right now started coming to my
every friends’ mind. We discussed among us quite a few times about some app
based idea, started working on it and then we forgot and again started to think
about some idea and same process happened over the last one year. In all this I lost my idea of having a dream
and working on it without thinking about the consequences, amount of money I
can generate etc. For me having a dream is a thought that you think can bring a
change in daily life of yours and civilisation not just for some months or
years but for decades. Computers –Bill Gates- Decades, Design/Product-Steve
Jobs-Decades, Electricity-Scientists-Centuries. Stock Market-Warren
Buffet-Decades, so for me the idea of having a dream was a big change
revolution in civilisation not these apps which are now just a way to earn
funds. Yes these apps are still a product and many have created revolution or
brought change but these apps wouldn’t be available if we didn’t had mobile.
And recently after trying a bit for similar kind app to get
some funds without exactly dreaming about it continuously, I came to this point
that I have stopped dreaming big which I used to do.
I had many times thought about villages, farmers,
agriculture since I have never lived in a village but since the last few years
I am gaining knowledge in farming sector also and I am coming to the point that
technological advancement has not helped the agriculture sector much and still in our country farmers do suicides because of the miserable life they are living. One person
is having assets of 1 lakh crore and is not bothered about food, its price how
it is produced and another person who is trying his best to produce for
thousands so that he can feed his family at least once a day.
How a pregnant lady is taken care of by the whole family by
feeding her with best food when she is going to give birth (produce) to a child
whereas how badly farmers are living in our country who are giving birth (produce)
to food which everyone wants to and needs to eat. I end my talk with this thought
and urge everyone who reads this to stop wasting food because for millions its
still a dream to have food everyday.!!
